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 A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil. |
* If only I can get a little more evil… perhaps drop some sarcastic comments while conversing with someone I don’t like?? Argh.. I just wish I could do that!!
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For a while, I thought I was dreaming. You won’t believe who I saw tonight while walking along Ongpin St. on the side: I love the soundtrack of “Sassy Girl Chun Hyang” though the story is just A-OK for me. This is by far my favorite –> haeng bok ha gil ba rae - Lim Hyung Joo. The song just stucked in my mind… it’s been for days. |
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15 minutes to go and I’m off from work. Time flies. It’s weekend once again… Moments like these, I get drowned in my own thoughts. I don’t know if I should be happy or sad coz I’ve been through ultimate high and low this week. My apologies to my avid blog readers out there. Sorry but I can’t spill everything here coz there are just too many eyes wandering around. So let me just talk to myself here. I just feel too sensitive at times. I get hurt for the tiniest reason. Could it be… I’m worrying because of… PMS? nahh.. psst.. don’t count! Happy weekend everybody! |
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(continuation…) Hospicio de San Jose
December 26 - a day after Christmas, our choir visited the aged at Hospicio de San Jose. Thanks to our friend for organizing and making Cycle a part of this meaningful activity for her birthday. The place is quite easy to find, but definitely odd coz I bet you’ll never imagine such place exist in Metro Manila. (Visualize) - take Ayala bridge (Finance road to Legarda direction) and turn right at the middle of the bridge. Yes, you read this right! There’s actually a small alley leading to Hospicio de San Jose at the middle of the bridge! If I’m the one to drive, I might bump the car coz the turn to the alley is just too narrow. Hehe.. I need more practice. Anyways, the place is nice and quiet. Fresh air and greens… it’s like you reached the other side of the world. The gathering was held in a gym at HDSJ. Most of the lolos and lolas were on wheel chairs, but some are still strong and energetic. We serenaded them with Christmas carols… and some of the lolas also showed-off their singing talents. Aba, ang galing kumanta ni lola - ika nga nila, parang ibong tiririt ang boses! Non-stop talaga! hehe… After some rounds of singing, food were distributed (c/o the birthday celebrant). Cycle prepared and distributed loot bags (yeah really beautiful loot bags *WINK*) filled with sweets… mostly soft foods. We were also toured around their dorm. It’s clean and nice actually. And there are lots of caregiver looking around for them as well. * Reflections: Surprisingly, I felt happy after the visit. Heard stories from friends before that visiting the home for the aged makes you feel sad kasi nakakaawa daw yung mga matatanda. I looked at it the other way naman. Although the fact still remains that these people are sad because their family are not by their side, at least they are not totally neglected. In some ways, I felt they are quite lucky for being able to have a place to stay and food to eat. Well, I don’t know, that’s just my point of view. Anyhoo, it’s nice sharing love to the people in need — Give Love on Christmas Day — nga daw. Yuletide Season 2005
People making list… The other thing that I love about Christmas — CHRISTMAS TREES!!! I enjoy going to malls, restaurants, friends’ houses to look at their Christmas trees - (kilatisin ba naman ang bawa’t isa? hehe…) I especially like those with a lot of ornaments, angels, ribbons and whatever they could think of to make their tree unique. And of course, being me, taking pictures with the beautiful trees is a MUST (as the pictures show). Our tree? hehe.. Well, apparently we don’t have one in our house. Hehe they are nice to look at, but a pain in the a** to keep after Christmas season. Well, maybe in the future when I get a house of my own. I also enjoy the sight of Christmas lights and decors along Ayala Ave. during Christmas season. Too bad there weren’t much decors these past few years. Tag-hirap yata talaga. Well… DVD Authoring - IJUKSA
My entire Christmas vacation went here - DVD Authoring. This was when I learned about DVD authoring lingos like mux, submux, encode, decode, transcode and the like. Still quite confused with which is which. Tried tons of software, but finally settled with dvdSanta and DVDLabPro. Actually I just needed to embed the subtitles to the video/avi clips Welcome 2006!
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No entries for the entire Christmas season? Hm… shall I use the reason ‘I was busy and exhausted’ again as allibi? hehe.. For a while, I thought of ending this blog all throughout coz I haven’t been patient enough to jot down blog-worth details. Been staring at this site for days… well, here I am blogging once again Even though 2005 was over, my mind’s still in holiday mood. Maybe because of the chilly weather these past few days. MAN! I so love the weather! I just hope the cold winds stay a bit longer. I guess the holiday mood isn’t really quite over until Chinese New Year (Jan 29 this year). Anyhoo.. let’s just rewind the time a little bit… Star City Escapade
I’ve been buggin’ BF for days to visit Star City coz it’s been ages since my last visit. Actually I wanted to go to EK but couldn’t find the time. So, Star City’s our only choice. I was emotionally challenging myself to try the scary rides to prove - (note) to MYSELF - that I am NOT OLD! It turned out, BF had almost gone deaf hearing me scream my lungs out. I couldn’t believe I almost cried.. (how shameful!) Even ferry’s wheel scared me to death! HUHU.. Bah naman! Parang wawarak na kasi ang makina nila! I swear - I will not go back to Star City again! Hehe.. affected ba? Anyways, I must challenge EK next time, or else I won’t have peace of mind. :p PCCI Christmas Party
Last Dec. 16 our company held it’s annual Christmas Party at Makati Shangrila (o diba sosy?). The theme for the night was “United Colors of Provident”. Aside from dressing yourself up in your best international costume, each team should prepare around 10 minutes presentation that would be judged at the end of the night by the upper management according to creativity, choreography, etc. Our team conceptualized an Indian theme and decided to present our own rendition of “THE GURU” - starring Jim Dimitri and Heather Graham. All throughout December, our minds were filled with the melody ~ Chori Chori Gori Se ~… We didn’t have enough time to practice our dance moves as we were quite busy during those times. Anyhoo, apart from the ramble in the middle of the presentation, our team did well as all the guys were like “bigay na bigay”! We were so happy coz we won the 3rd prize that night considering that we didn’t hope much at all. Actually, we learned from our big boss later on that she was quite worried that our Indian client (also a judge) will get offended with our presentation. Turned out, he loved our presentation coz he knew the movie. Whew! I remember his eyes were like so big out of shock when the emcee announced that we’ll be performing an Indian dance. hehe.. * I assumed to be the unofficial make-up artist for our team that night. hehe.. look how I transformed our team leader from a serious IT professional to a wacky sex guru. haha… kulang nalang sakalin na niya ako! I also did some of the girls’ make-up… not so bad! I especially like the one I did for our “Heather”… Man, I wish I have BIG eyes like her! Alex and Nancy’s Wedding
One Fine Day 
One early morning, BF and I saw this weird looking lizard on the post along Valero St. It’s tail looked so funny. Later that afternoon when we passed by that pole again, the lizard was still there. Turned out, it got stucked on the pole and was hanged to death. Creepy… |
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Last weekend, I was determined to clean-up my room no matter how much I wanted to lay in bed all day. Well, I did, but didn’t finish cleaning the entire room.. hehe.. simply too much trash. I focused mainly on the pile of shoe boxes and I realized: "30+ pairs of shoes! My God, that’s a lot." Of course, not all of them are in top shape anymore. In fact, there were some that I barely wore. They were just forgotten when newer shoes comes in. Sayang. But as much as I would like to keep them all, I realized that I might never wear some of the shoes anymore. Like those that once hurt my feet and those that are almost worned out. Some were gifts that were never worn. Instead of keeping them, I decided to give them away. Para hindi masayang. So I ended up giving away almost half of my shoes. Wanda’s 6 commandments on buying shoes:
Well, I guess I really need to control the urge to splurge on shoes so that I don’t waste my hard-earned money. So I thought of making a shoe inventory to remind me of the shoes that I already have. It’s simple. I just piled up the shoe boxes in one vertical line. Then stick the pictures of the shoes on their respective boxes so that it’ll be easier for me to scan through my shoe collection. hehe.. of course, no shoe number/codes! hehe not that OC yet. Next in line… inventory of make-up and skin care junkies… |
My teeth got a little distorted these days. Went to the dent and he suggested that I put on retainers. Been biting forcefully in my sleep because of tension. I wonder what’s in my dream?
My chum Aileen just recently got married. Didn’t I mention I have lots of friends getting married this year? Anyways, I was part of the entourage so that’s another chance for some kikay powers again. The photographer asked us to make this pose… hm.. that’s the wackiest we could get? hehe.. I guess we’re still shy in front of the camera. Hirap pala maging model. :p 
grow. Yeah, in some sense it’s true. But I never expected that I’ll feel this "empty". Akala ko carry ko. Carry ko naman, but I just do feel lonely. (reminds me of the song: lonely.. i’m mr. lonely… hehe) That’s why I keep forcing myself to focus on the pasalubongs he’ll bring home for me. HEHE how bad! But true to his words, BF brought home lots of goodies for me!! Ka-excite!! :) Pero kidding aside, namiss ko rin yun may ka-hhww (holding hands while walking) during the time we’re apart. Namiss ko rin na may kaagaw sa pagkain when I dine out. At higit sa lahat, namiss ko rin yun may nangungulit at nang-aasar sa akin oras oras. hehe… 
My locks have been complaining a lot these days for the lack of care and abuse. To show it’s protest, it gave me a painful punishment… huhuhu lots of falling hairs. I don’t know why. Some said maybe I’m too stressed out these days. Hm.. ba’t di ko nafefeel yun? Anyways, to give it some relaxing space, decided to snip it off. Waaaah!! my long black hairrr… Well, I think cutting it short did work. It stopped from falling na. I’ll just wait for my hair to grow back again. In the meantime, back to my short hair look muna. 
HAR HAR!! Got a new pair of shoes today! HEHE.. In case you don’t know, I’m a shoe addict!! :) First styletto in my life. hehe.. that’s how backward I am. :pI intended to write this blog on the day itself but couldn’t find words to describe my feelings at that time. So it took some time before I could actually spill out my thoughts in words.
Last Sept. 19 was my 30th birthday in chinese. I’m usually bad at remembering dates in the lunar calendar. Or more precisely, it’s out of my mind at all. But mom’s the exact opposite. She remembers events and occassions in the lunar calendar. In her perception, chinese birthdays are the ones that needs to be celebrated. However, I didn’t expect that this year will be any different from the past. We don’t celebrate birthdays at home (not even Christmas). And I doubt if anyone in the family notices each other’s birthday. I think it all started when dad passed away (I was 7 years old then). Mom was busy making a living. My brothers were "deported" to the province for secondary school. So basically, it was just mom, me, and my yaya Lorna living together in our old apartment. Honestly, I did feel a bit bitter when I was still young. You know, birthdays are special for kids. But as I grow older, I got used to it.
So last Sept. 19 was just another ordinary day. Before I left for the office, mom told me to come home earlier that night. I didn’t really pay much attention to what she was saying. So the day just passed and I took some extra hours finishing my work that day. When I left the office, it’s almost 7pm. While I was on my way home, I received an SMS from my sister-in-law. "Saan ka na? Nagluto si mama ng misua at bumili siya ng cake." I replied: "On the way home na ako." At that instant, I can’t help myself but tears were just rolling down like crazy. To think I was in the FX that time. Buti nalang it was dark then so other passengers didn’t really notice I was crying. I was really touched. I couldn’t remember when was the last time mom brought a birthday cake for me. Others might think that it’s just a cake, and it’s no big deal. But for me, it’s something that I’ve always wanted during my birthdays - a cake from mama. Or even a pat on the head and a simple birthday greeting. I remember my birthday during that year papa died. Mom handed me colored Mentos and told me: "happy birthday. Sorry but this is the only gift I can afford to give you now." I was so happy that time. It must have been so special to me that’s why I can still remember it clearly in my mind until now.
When I got home, mom prepared a BIG bowl of misua with egg for me. She said it’s my birthday so I should eat birthday noodles for good luck. She also prepared other viands and specially mentioned that she made prawns for me. Actually after finishing that bowl of misua, I was already full. AS IN super busog na. But remembering mom’s effort of preparing this special meal for me, I finished all the prawns. After dinner, Sister-in-law was still busy tutoring my nephews. I looked around and didn’t see any cake. "Hm.. bluff lang ba ‘to?" I asked the kids: "Asan yun cake?" The kids got so excited and started shouting: "Ama yun cake!!" I think my mom intended to make it a surprise for me hehe.. and sis-in-law just spoiled the surprise. Mom went to the fridge and took out the mini Black Forest she bought from Red Ribbon. I blurted out: "That’s my favorite!" Mom said in a soft tone: "I knew you love this flavor". She started gathering the kids and sang happy birthday song for me. I can’t explain the happiness I felt deep
inside. When was the last time mom sang happy birthday song for me? I couldn’t
remember. I was crying already, not in front of them, but deep inside my heart. All the bitterness during my childhood days went away. Mom said, by tradition, parents should celebrate their children’s 30th chinese birthday so that they’ll have celebrations in the succeeding birthdays. Or anything of that sort, I don’t really understand.
Mom and I, we just don’t express our feelings towards each other verbally. That night, I really wanted to say: "Ma, thank you." But I didn’t coz I couldn’t do it. Geeshh.. I just hope my ma reads my blog. hehe but that’s not gonna happen coz she doesn’t understand english. Well, maybe one day.. I could actually find the courage to tell her personally: "MA, Xie Xie Ni…" (Thank You.)
*** Ma, that candle was so BIG!!!
*** It feels really warm inside whenever I remember how ma and I used to hug each other every night until we fall asleep (even until high school)… oooopppss… i think i’m gonna cry again…
I’ve always been a big fan of idol dramas since I was in my teens. Just to name a few, popular japanese series such as Tokyo Love Story, Ai Qing Bai Pi Shu, Say You Love Me, Cinderella Story, were big hits back then. J series were dubbed in mandarin, which I prefer coz it touches me more. Later on, taiwanese idol dramas followed their footsteps and came out with Meteor Garden as their debut. F4 became famous overnight. Actually, I watched MG only after it was being aired on channel 2. Isip ko, ang corny naman nila baket ginagaya ang jap series? Tsaka, baket si Barbie ang bida e laos na sya sa taiwan? After watching it, I have to take back my words coz apparently the series was really very very touching. One that will linger on your mind for a long time. Classic kung baga. So I love jap and taiwanese idol dramas. But why not Korean? Actually I’ve watched a couple of K series in the earlier years and I find the story line quite dragging most the time. Any series more than 20 episodes is already quite long for me (kaya nga dragging din ang MG2). And there weren’t much korean actors/actresses that time so sila sila lang din ang umiikot sa mga series. Thus, I don’t watch K series. I’m ok with Korean movies kasi kahit gano kadragging 2-2.5 hours lang naman yun. Anyways, this is just the beginning of what I intend to write in this blog. Hehe ang haba ng intro. I heard a lot about Full House from friends and praises that Rain was so good looking in the series etc etc. Nacurious naman ako. I tried surfing the channel to “kapuso” and watched for a few minutes. At first glance, hm.. ok.. He’s singkit, but may appeal naman. Pero BF was really surprised. Yan ba daw ang tawag sa guwapo??? E ang pangit niyan! Which I also didn’t object kasi nga singkit talaga niya sobra. After some time, a friend lend me the VCD of that series. She insisted that I should watch it kasi maganda talaga. I just said ok but I usually don’t watch K series nga. So, I basically just brought the VCDs home to accumulate dust. Finally last week, I decided to return the VCDs to my friend without watching it. Tinatamad kasi ako manood. So I brought the VCDs to the office and was prepared to return them to my friend when I meet her. Tapos exactly that day, our network connection in the office was down. No network, no work, and no surfing. Wala na akong magawa. Lahat ng puwedeng kalikutin dito sa PC ko kinalikut ko na. Bored na ako. Then out of the blue, I remembered I brought the Full House VCDs. So isip ko, sige na nga silipin ko lang bago ko isauli. Hehe.. I was hooked since then. Not only was the series touching, it was at the same time light, bubbly, funny, and cute. I wouldn’t change what I thought about Rain coz he’s not really the guwapo type for me. Although I was a bit surprised kasi he’s so sexy and tall pala. Ok.. I think enough na yun to complement his looks. HEHE (no offense to his fans). What hit me the most was his character in the series – Lee Young Jae. Especially how he’s trying to hide his true self na sensitive, shy, and not expressive at all with his feelings for the girl he likes. And another was the chemistry between his character and her leading lady’s character (Han Ji-eun). Grabe, I can’t stop myself from crying and laughing and feeling *kilig*. Oh anyways, I think people who watched Full House will know what I’m trying to say right now. Click here to see the synopsis of the story. Here are a few scenes that I like the most: 1. when YJ and JE went for honeymoon 2. scenes when JE started to get along with YJ’s family esp. yun scenes na grandma’s head was hit several times bec JE was trying to carry her. 3. scenes when JE started to get affected with YJ getting home late at night. 4. When YJ opted to go with Hyu-won after the premiere and left his wife JE alone. 5. When YJ started to feel concerns for JE but not admitting it. 6. When YJ sings and dances the 3 bears song for JE when she’s angry. Esp the american version! funny talaga 7. When JE admitted he love YJ for the first time. 8. When YJ told JE they can’t live together anymore after JE’s confession. 9. The first time JE asked for a divorce from YJ and he felt hurt. Grabe his tears were actually rolling. Pero he still doesn’t want to admit that he’s in love with her. 10. When JE asked YJ not to divorce anymore (for the fear of affecting his acting career). 11. When JE asked for a divorce for the 2nd time. 12. YJ admitting his feelings for JE and chases her sa airport. 13. When YJ finally gives JE a divorce and he announces to the world how much he’s in love with her through press conference. SUPER!!! 14. YJ went back to his hotel room and had flashbacks of how happy he was with JE in full house. He was laughing and crying at the same time. SUPER MEGA TO THE MAX!!! 15. YJ decided to propose to JE 16. The camping scene when JE finally accepted YJ again. And also the following morning YJ was too shy and can’t even look straight at JE. 17. When they try to cheer each other up by saying.. "AJA AJA FIGHTING!" 18. Amazing Land and Ice skating scenes. Pardon me from go on and on… fresh and kilig pa kasi ako from the series so I can’t help myself! Hehe.. For those who haven’t watch it yet, better grab a copy and watch it!! I was thankful for having no network connection last week, for brining the VCDs to the office, and for deciding to take a look at the VCDs. Buti nalang I haven’t returned them yet or else.. ang laki ng mamimiss ko. 
The soundtrack of the series is also very nice. Touching ang mga music. Click here to download the OST.
P.S. so, nagbago na ba ang pagtingin ko sa mga koreanovelas? Mukhang hindi pa rin. Pero Full House is an exception to the rule.
Off topic: Lonely na naman ako. 
around 24 hrs nalang… huhuhu.. why? (*secret*)…
And I hate myself for worrying too much. Worrying won’t solve the problem. I know that but my mind doesn’t. Problems just keep hunting me whenever I’m idle, like when I’m in the bus, during lunch breaks, before bedtime, and even when I’m pooping my mind is still restless. Geessh… You know, sometimes when problems get worse because of somebody else and they’re just out of my control? And you tried persuading the certain somebody by carefully explaining certain things so that she’ll understand and eventually be convinced? And yet in the end, she just gets mad at you? Argh.. hindi ako mapilit… I just know I’m the one who is right (period).
